Hopes

So here I go again. Another year has passed away. Do I feel wiser? Sure thing I do. Do I feel happier? Jeez, yeah! Do I have all things figured out?  Hell, no! Did I lived the best I could’ve? Yeea…Ha!  let’s be honest. I didn’t! I could’ve done so much better than I did. But one thing I know for sure. I took it all in. The bad, the good, pain,  joy, you name it. I took them all in! And I tried to learn something from everything.  I was low and I was high. I’ve swum through the deepest waters and survived. I’ve then took my wings and fly as high as I could. I saw the beauty of this world and I’ve kissed the sun. I've touched the moon and felt the warm embrace of the stars! I’ve enjoyed every single moment of my glory and then learned how to fall with grace.  I’ve lived! 

And as I am standing in front of another number, I really hope for some things. I hope I'll make more time to invest in my passions and in what really makes me happy. I hope I'll learn to suit up (and do it better) against all the negativity people all around throw like they don't care. I hope I'll be able to love them anyway!

I hope I'll make a difference in somebody else's life. I hope I can bring joy to the others and be an inspiration. I hope I'll find the answers I'm looking for and draw myself closer to God. I hope I'll be a better daughter, a better sister and a better friend. - A better myself -
I hope I'll find you! 

October baby

October… And when I say October, only joyful memories come to my mind. Well, that’s a lie.

But let’s focus on the good things, shall we? Why I love October? Because it’s the “beginning” of my  favorite season. (For me , really, autumn begins in October, so just bear with me for a couple of sentences, will ya? ) Because I can finally wear boots and scarves and cozy sweaters. And let’s not forget about  the amazing, a-m-a-z-i-n-g colorful leaves. And… oh, the wind! You can literally see its hands playing with leaves, raising them up and let them fall gently on the ground; and its power… There’s nothing more refreshing than walking against it; feeling it through my hair, making my eyes tear and putting a smile on my face every single time we salute each other.   How majestic it is and how restless! 

The pumpkins, the smell of pies and cinnamon, tea, my birthday :>, reading books by the window, hot chocolate… and the RAIN. Rain – there’s nothing like it. Tell me something better than walking through rain with/ without an umbrella while listening to James Blunt? Or sitting by your window listening to thunders and watching the nature putting on a show just for you. Please, tell me. I dare you! :D

Well, I may be a little bit too romantic, some would say, but that’s the way I see the world. Beautiful, mesmerizing world we live in.

Why I feel this way about October?

Because it reminds me so much of myself. I am too, restless. And like the leaves, sometimes  I fall to the ground too. Getting washed away by the rain, holding on to that hope of resurrection – spring. On the outside I might seem cold and numb, but if you’ll embrace me, you would see my true colors, you would feel my passion and you would hear my music…

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If October would’ve been a girl, she would’ve been my twin sister. Just sayin'.