WORDS... they come so damn hard. My feelings though, they are strong and painfully annoying. If I could just have a switch to turn it off every single time I want...it would be so much easier. I could ignore everything's wrong around me and see only the bright side, I could ignore the hungry faces I see every day... all the hurt and all the pain. I could forget about all the unanswered questions, all my failures and guilt, about the homeless old man, about the single mom with her two little kids living on streets, about all those smiles full of sadness. The thing is I don't have such a switch, I'm not a vampire and I'm not livin' in Mystic Falls. I could choose not to care, of course, cause sh*t happens all over the world, but that's not how I'm made. I just wish someday I could do more than writing down my frustration or buy a sandwich... I wanna leave something behind, something to be remembered for, I wanna say I've lived the best I could've and that I meant something, in somebody's life; that I've touched hearts and made minds wonder...
I've met some beautiful, wonderful people on my way until now, some left , some are still walking beside me. I, sometime, think about those who left and my heart shatters at the thought I might not see them again. What if I could've done better? Should've told them what my heart wanted me so much to say? Should've told them about God's perfect love? Should've stayed silent? Dying souls. It kills me, seeing unhappy people. I wish I could tell them, things will get better, I wish I could hug them until all the pain is gone... Wish they would believe me when I'll tell them there is MORE... Wish I could do more...
